It's been a while since I've written on this blog, five months to be exact. Since I last wrote about being a death doula, my grandma has passed away and so much of my life has changed. I needed to take a break from the routine I had before and take a moment to explore my world inside and out. Since I last wrote, I feel like I’ve started a brand new chapter.
A Temple Monk
I've moved out of my parents’ house and into a home of my own with three housemates. We call it "The Temple" because its inhabitants are all highly spiritual people. There’s an entire room we curate that’s dedicated to Spirit, where each wall has an altar dedicated to the cardinal direction it faces. We call that the “Spirit Room”. It includes art, figurines, trinkets, incense, plants, and all kinds of magical tools from different religions and practices.
My life is so different now than how it was when I last wrote. Since moving into a house with a dog, two cats, and three housemates who I absolutely love being around, my soul has flourished! I feel changed, in a really good way. Now that I'm in my own space, I feel free enough to explore my unconscious and check in with my body. I do a lot more shadow work now that I'm more at ease. I'm able to be a lot more introspective. So, last month I decided to go on a 30-day cleanse.
Say NO to Meat
This 30-day cleanse consisted of cutting out both meat and alcohol. It started off as a cleanse from meat, alcohol, and smoking cannabis, but after about 5 days I decided to reintroduce smoking because I believe it's medicine and not a cause of harm to me. I believe, when starting any kind of journey we should be open to adjusting our course.
My goal was to cleanse my body of the toxins created when consuming alcohol and meat products, and to see how it all made me feel. I was interested in the psychological and physical benefits that come from doing a cleanse. I was also interested in what thoughts and emotions would come up along the way. It wasn't very hard at first because I've cut out meat and alcohol before, but never at the same time.
Reduce, Reuse, Replace
The first few days were pretty easy because I was excited to get started. There are so many different vegan options, vegetarian options, and meat replacements these days. All it really took was a conscious effort to say no and choose a different option. Cutting out alcohol was a great excuse to drink more water. On days when I wanted to drink, I simply told myself that I was choosing not to. When we'd have people over our house for a social gathering I would drink sparkling water, sparkling cider, those new adaptogenic sodas that have calming herbs in them, or other CBD drinks.
During the last half of the cleanse it became especially difficult to smell delicious meats that I miss and muster the strength not to eat them. I remember when my housemates were baking a salmon in the oven and it smelled so delicious I just wanted to lick it. But I didn't, I persisted. That night, I took the time to meditate and take some deep breaths. That really helps to solidify a difficult decision and make it one that you can be especially confident in.
There were a lot of times when I needed to prepare meals by hand because they weren't readily available or appetizing. Since I did this cleanse in the winter time, I found myself cooking many pots of soup, stews, bowls, and bakes. I suppose I could have taken the time to have a "meal prep day". That would have made it a lot easier and saved me many hours of time. I kept realizing on different days of the week that I needed to cook something for myself and then stopping everything to do it. It took a lot of effort, but in the end I'm really glad I did it; every last meal.
A Sour Ending
On the night of the 29th day, I went to a restaurant for one of my girlfriend's birthday and I ordered a salmon dish and a New York Sour cocktail. The cleanse was then brought to a close. It was such an amazing, quality cocktail and I enjoyed it so much, it could have been my birthday too. I only ate half of the salmon dish because I wasn't sure how my body would react. I'm glad I was cautious because the next day it felt like there was a tiny knot in my stomach, and that's okay. It went away before the sun went down.
I believe cleanses are a way to explore your vehicle and find out what it is your body truly needs, and feels, and thinks. During this cleanse I also started doing enemas, which are a great way to give love to your body. We'll talk more about that in a later post. Even though this cleanse has ended, I still feel the need to be conscious of what I eat and what feels like the best thing to put inside my body. I think about what's worth it and what isn't.
I'm a Cleanse Queen now
I'm making a lot more healthy choices now that I know what's available and I've taken the time to put what I'm eating under a microscope. I encourage everyone to try a cleanse at least once and be conscious the whole time, writing in a journal, reading books and blogs, and truly taking into account what you pick up and put in your mouth.
I feel like I've completed the first of many cleanses. For a couple of days I cut out sugar, and that was extremely difficult. So I think I'll try to go for next-level cleanses like that in the future. I know my body is very grateful that I made space for it and took the time to show it love. It was something I'd wanted to do for a long time and I'm very glad I actually did. Leave a comment below if you have your own cleanse journey to share or any questions for me about mine.
Until next time,